dear me

dear me,

take your time growing flowers over the feelings in your heart. i know it's not easy. sometimes it's just not possible to feel good or loved or enough. still, i am sure you can accomplish a lot. darkness has accompanied you for a long time, but you can turn it into your strength. it can be the power, the inspiration, the art. you will get through these weird moments. 

remember, dear me, remember that you always want to choose the bright place. sometimes the darkness seems like the easier option. it doesn't take much effort. but the bright side will be worth it. don't drown in the 'too much' or 'not enough'. you can be so much more than that.

it has been a good time on this earth and i can imagine a thousand things i am grateful for. i can be more and more and more. i can see no end to goodness and beauty. dear me, nothing can stop you. you can be great, even if you don't feel like that sometimes. i know you can make art out of eveything. even the worst. the disgusting. the ashamed. the tragic. 

but dear me; at the end, please choose the light. you have given the darkness too much space in these past years. be the one, you aspire to be. be loved. and love. and know what you want, because it will form you and lead you and hold your hand. times can get rough, but the beauty of life will never vanish. 

choose the light.

dear me,

choose yourself.